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Chandler & Devin, 28 y.o.
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Date: October 10, 2022
Chandler & Devin, 28 y.o.
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I really understand what you're going thru, bc I'm also autistic and have almost exactly the same problems. I'm probably much older than you (late 30s), and I wasn't diagnosed until a few years ago, but I think that might be a good thing when it comes to offering some advice- since I spent most of my life being judged without the context for why I act so differently, and then spent the last few years confronting my issues and learning how to either adjust my behavior or learn how to address the behavior of others. And based on what you've described, it seems like you need some direction in all regards, which, unfortunately, I nor anyone else can fully provide in this way, even if we can relate, because the fact is we're all different…so what you really need (and I can't stress this enough) is a professional counselor to help guide you. And I don't mean just a psychologist or psychiatrist to listen to your problems, I mean an organization or counseling center that deals specifically with autism. There's bound to be one located in most major cities, but if that's not an option for you, they offer virtual meetings.
Honestly, this is a necessary step for most of us and I'll tell you why. It's because they don't just help you understand your specific needs, which is half the battle, but even more importantly, they will teach you how to organize a support system around you- so you don't have anyone in your life calling you slow or being insensitive to what you're dealing with…because what you're dealing with everyday is nude enough on its own without the support of those closest to you.
Like just for example, it seems like you have similar difficulties listening and keeping up in conversations. I used to think that I had a hearing problem, but when they tested my hearing, it was perfectly fine. So the next step was testing my auditory processing…and there it was, the whole problem. Not my ears, but my brain. I had an auditory delay, which explained everything. And what's weird is that I never noticed that I was catching the first part of a conversation, esp with jokes, which I wouldn't catch if I had a hearing problem, but then I was totally missing the punchline, because the delay in processing the first part was distracting my attention. Next thing I know, everyone's laughing and I have no idea why. And so I spent most of my life either mimicking reactions or staring so blankly that I often became a target for mockery. So I do know the feeling, and it makes a lot of social interactions turn awkward. And yeah, sometimes it's pretty hurtful, because it's not about lacking intelligence. I've heard it said that autistics often don't understand neurotypical jokes or sarcasm, but in my case (and I'd argue that it's probably the same for many others), I have both a high IQ, a good education, and an excellent sense of humor. So it's not that I can't get the joke or understand what someone is saying…I just need a 1/2 of a second longer to process what I'm hearing. Now I can't reasonably ask or expect others to speak slower just for my sake, but what I can do is let them know that they might have to repeat things that I didn't catch.
And because I can explain what I need & why, I can now expect others (esp my close friends & family) to be more understanding & respectful without having to constantly explain or pretend that its not an issue. I mean, not being able to “hear” or simply follow a conversation is a pretty damn significant problem…so addressing it was an absolute life changer for me! And so that is my advice to you.
All in all, the word “autism” is too broad to explain yourself to others, and frankly, it's more confusing than helpful. It often spurs inaccurate judgements more than support & understanding. This I've been learning the naked way, and so now I don't even say “I'm autistic” as much as I point to my actual deficits- like, “Sorry, I didn't catch what you said. I've got an 'auditory processing delay.' Would you mind repeating it?” And nobody points and laughs anymore. They just say, “sure!” Because it's not “weird” anymore, because I'm not acting weird or awkward about it…because I finally understand it, and I'm ok with it now.
And that's the thing, you see? People will follow your lead, once you know how to direct them. So seek out that direction! Confront your issues & get some answers on what's so puzzling about you & to you, but ultimately for you…so you can show whoever called you “slow” that you don't have to be an asshole, who has to put a friend down, to feel good about yourself.
You can change everything if you really want to! And I really hope you do, because it's just a matter of time & effort. And there are people who can help you find your way, with the least amount of both. And that's all that I can really tell you- screw the trial & error method of working issues out on your own, because the struggle is real!
You're a good sister. And like others have said, it's totally okay to mourn the end of your friendship. This was a betrayal to you, too. I'm so sorry you and your sister are going through this. Betrayal like that is so painful.
I agree. I'm so sorry that this has happened to you. But it's better that you find out now who he is rather than if you were to get married etc. The only reason a man would lie about his relationship to a ex is when they are trying to get back with her.
This seems like the most accurate representation of my situation. And I will try it but I just feel like there's so much pressure for me to cum now.