OP – you mentioned getting suggestions about developing healthy habits. Here are a couple of thoughts.
Stay away from relationships for a while until you do some work on yourself. At the moment, you wouldn't recognize a healthy dynamic, unless it whacked you upside the head with a baseball bat. And because of your parents relationship, you are more familiar with toxic dynamics, so you are more attracted to them, hence the last relationship.
Get your hands on a mindfulness workbook and start working and practising it. Take a look at different workbooks, and see which one's might suit you. Start working on yourself.
The workbooks will help until you are able to start therapy.
Daniel is Jack’s friend, so Jack should handle it. “That’s not funny” or “Don’t make jokes like that” would suffice.
OP – you mentioned getting suggestions about developing healthy habits. Here are a couple of thoughts.
Stay away from relationships for a while until you do some work on yourself. At the moment, you wouldn't recognize a healthy dynamic, unless it whacked you upside the head with a baseball bat. And because of your parents relationship, you are more familiar with toxic dynamics, so you are more attracted to them, hence the last relationship.
Get your hands on a mindfulness workbook and start working and practising it. Take a look at different workbooks, and see which one's might suit you. Start working on yourself.
The workbooks will help until you are able to start therapy.